Sunday, June 19, 2005  

music Blur ; Music Is My Radar

I think I should write more in this! I'm looking at the archives and it's so sad because there's only a few updates permonth. Or probably get a new name, because I'm not liking this that much. But oh well, I need to motivate myself to stick with what I have, HAHA.

I've been looking around the Fruits livej community and DAMN I'd really want to go out and wear like that! Now they'll clal me the "malay-and-tudunged-Ah-Lian" but who cares man, who cares. Now I'm gonna hunt out for a sewing machine and some cheap pants from Fajar and some new scarfs with polka-dots ^^ Probably the only shopping place that I'd love is Sungei Wang! During the VI Trasure Hunt, we passed by the shops on the top floor and look at the stuff!! RM16 for a nice skirt!! That's cheap! And not only that, I'm going to shock the TTDI KIDS with the uber phrase: I SHALL PWNZ JOO JOO LAME SCENE (no, wait, EMO!)WANNABES!!! and I have a strange fetish for ties. Mmm.

I'm being more ambitious after my departure from boarding school. Now I'm aiming for the IU Director or the President post in Interact Club, be the next President of Photography Club of 2006, and get straight A1s FA SHO. The form for the post is right beside me, and I can't wait to send this to Yung Chien ^^ And I'm planning to make my own a long Interact skirt so I could wear it with my scarf. Or the alternative way is to wear pants under the skirt(in which my friends were against the idea). Totally Fruits-y!
On Saturday, we had our Interact Club photoshoot. After that, Aida, Dina and I went to One Utama with our Interact clothes on, and we had our brunch (Breakfast + lunch) in a small bar inside the foodcourt infront of the groceries Jaya Jusco. We were the first customers, so the worker there was really friendly. Not to mention that it's cheap! The spaghetti was only RM4.50 and Dina and Aida couldn't finish it because of the large portion! After that, we went to have a walk around because we have the whole day to ourselves, and went in Rock Corner, and made Troy confused. "*puts on his confused face* Eih? what's wrong with you??" XD Eventually we were walking around and went inside the Wind Tunnel. Aida always managed to make another version of the Constantine poster, the one that Keanu Reaves standing with wind blowing his tie and hair. Yeahp. Went to MPH and got the form for the 2005 Writing Contest. now we have to do something about being in the past or the future. I still have to write below 800 words ]: But now I have a perfect guideline, then it's okay!
And then we had some purikura fun:

Aida, me, Dina :D

Sunday, June 12, 2005   The final.

music Dir En Grey ; Egnirys Cimredopyh

          That's it. I decided to leave MRSM Jasin forever. I shocked my mom with tears this very morning, the morning that I was supposed to leave for the second semester, but I decided that this is it.
          Yesterday night at Afnan's birthday party, as we were sitting around making jokes while waiting for the chicken and with Harith trying to flirt with Amir Bo, I said it out loud, the thought that I've been having in my mind the whole day. "I think I'm going to quit Jasin." At first I wasn't sure, I was scared to actually tell my mom. I mean, i don't want to let her down among her friends and her siblings. This is the factor that actually drives me to stay there, eventhough in truth I hate it. I actually do. It's not in the survival part. It's not in the education part [ok, well, except that I seem to have no changes to become a more intelligent person. But Malaysian education IS more to memorising, right?].
          What I've been thinking and predicting is how my Fifth Form year would be. It might be monotonous. Might be disastrous. Might be the next synonym for alienation. I don't know. I still couldn't fit in to a true Malay community. That's how I see it. It's stupid, and it feels like I'm being a racist to my own race, but that's how it is. But probably you would think, "wtf? so she decided to quit the top school because of her own social skills?" but you don't know how it is, dude. You don't know how it is. And what else with the darling conflict of the Drama Team.

          Aida was pleading me to stay. Afnan calmed me down, saying don't panic, and he'll pray that my mom will let me. Amir Bo... "O_______O BETUL KE???" while Harith said, "Don't... boarding school life is fuuuun!" Well, it's easy for him to say since his school has a studio music for BAND, while all we get in Jasin is nasyids being shoved up in our ears.

          So, Damansara Utama Secondary School, here I come. 

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Sunday, June 05, 2005  

music Sleater-Kinney - The Fox

I downloaded Architecture In Helsinki - In Case We Die which has got to be the happiest and the cutestrecord I've ever listened to next to The Unicorns; Sleater-Kinney - The Woods which is one strong grrl power record and I think it's the best by them so far; Tarwater - The Needle Was Travvelling which is just another album to add in my electro [heh, Pojam] list. Not to mention I bought Keane - Hopes and Fears album out of the blue even though I wasn't aiming to buy it. But, eh.

We have a new headmistress. And new rules. Such as no more music devices during prep. OH NOES. There goes our freedom ]: Everything will be more boring than ever.

I had a sleepover at Dina's house. Consists of the regular back to Jude Law-ism, yaoi talk, TENKUU NO ESCAFLOWNE scniasdfef I miss being overly obsessed with this anime, wearing the sith cloak with my dad's retor glasses that looks exactly like the one that Paul Banks always wear, and also I have to tolerate Dina's sudden crazyness towards Mr Hayden Christensen. And our own version of Star Wars.

I really miss One Utama! I went there with Iffa and Aida with Aida's hair colour ebcoming more... out of the edge? Ohohoho. Too much chemicals yow! We had Waffles because dear Iffa wants to see 'someone'... :>

I'm really not in the mood to update, really, but, yeah. Just to let you know that I'm alive. 

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Thursday, May 26, 2005  

      I have never been more tired and ever. I've been running from the library, to my dorm, to the library again (mind you, Jasin is on top of a hill and full of un-symmetrical stairs. Antique school maaa), and now I'm worrying about the registration for the Workshop. I'm sorry Dina to cause you a lot of trouble. Tonight I'll have to borrow a friend's phone and call my mother about the money and call Dina. Dina, someone will miss call you so uh ya that'll be me.

      All the heavy papers are finished!! Tomorrow I'll have my Malay Language, which will be a-okay (I suppose, if not those hard idioms and unknown words will pop out and 15 marks will be gone T__T), English (which will be more than a-okay), Art, Computer Science, and English Proficiency Test (I don't know what the hell this is). And on the next Tuesday, after I come out from my class I'll head straight back home yay!

      Chemistry was, by the word of Dina, Hojjible. Biology was almost hojjible, since I'm the only one who passed up my Paper 1 earlier than the time limit. Modern Mathematics was much more hojjibler than Add Maths. Seriously. This is the hojjible fact of being in the same school with smart people.

      My roommate, Fara & I had been re-create lyrics of VE's Pop Ye Ye into a song that literally means that we can't wait to go back home.

      I'm repeating the same thing that I did to Lutfi, except it haven't reached to the face to face thing yet, but I acheived on being a good stalker. yay. 

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Tuesday, May 10, 2005   so i'm using the school's comp, yay!

A very looong hiatus of some sort, people, but I'm back! (to this blog la, huuu.). Anyways, to Sheikh, Miss Felda asked what are you doing now.

Anyway, to my friends, I hope all of you are reading this! I'm sorry I haven't been sending letters and all that jazz. I have like, uh, 5 drafts or unfinished letters to, uh, finish. But anyway, good news! on the evening or afternoon of 31st May 2005, I'll be back with all of you, people! But I have to suffer 2 weeks for my Final Sem examinations like blah -_-

I'd like to say one thing: I really miss DU kids. I really do. Everytime when there's the new intake coming in, I'll be hoping that it'll be Aida. Or at least someone from DU (like, uh, Aida? haha). But noo... all you get are more kids from Shah Alam. Have I told you that this school or most MRSMs are being populated by Shah Alam kids? & the fact that they are so different from DU kids make me feel really weird. You know, like using the word "awak" 5 times in one short sentence.
I just realised something: we, me & my girl friends, you know who you are, are so different than normal girls. In terms on what our conversation revolves around, and how we maintain our relationship, and how we actually treat others. because back then, eventhough we have a some sort of a clique of our own, but we are free to be all-rounders, and yet here, you just HAVE to have a clique of your own or you wouldn't survive at all. & you have to be with someone, or they'll call you a loner. & yet, back then in DU, when it comes to certain tasks, we'll walk on our own, and it's like us being very independant. But here, despite teaching us to be independent academically, it's making us feel very conservative to ourselves socially. It's not that I don't like it, but I can't change myself to suit the situation.
It's just the way we approach all these things that normal girls do, - e.g.boys, clothes, hair, dadoda - it's just so... different. I could sense it in our voice tones or body language and all that jazz even. I mean, like, come on, did we control ayu infront of ourselves as well?? This made me think: am I not being a normal girly girl and all that jazz? Or what?
I almost had a breakdown and had a terrible moodswing over the week.

But I have to say, I am annoyed by the girls who are the youngest in the family and likes to do suara manja and act all manja2 infront of people but hates it when boys started to chase them when it's them who called for it. Or crying when their boyfriends are mad at them but it's actually their fault but then they use the excuse, "doesn't he know how do I feel???" WTF.

Okay, anyways, so I went to a lot of places and a lot of stuff had happened. Today I went to Malaysian Institute of Aviation Technology and I get to see rundown aeroplanes and took a lot of pictures of aeroplanes and not people. and I have to give a compliment about the Institute: they did a good job on getting good students who are good looking at the same time. I mean like I was amazed. Like, whoah, gila ka ini institute?. Next, went to Malaysia France Institute which was boring so yadayada. We're supposed to go to Alamanda in Putrajaya but we didn't even stepped on the ground of Putrajaya itself. :p

Now, let me tell you something: I like a boy. Bohahahahahahahaha uh ya. & great news, he is (probably) shorter than me. BOHAHAHA. But he has beeyoooooteepool eyes!!! Seriously. I mean, long curly eyelashes and like glittering eyes like hell (no, I'm not metaphoring, it's the truth. My friend said the same thing!). His name is.... teneneneng! Mohd Luqman Mohd Amin. He's from King George V high school, Seremban(nama grand woo). I had a real conversation with him once, and there's a part which goes:

me i bet you want to be an engineer or a doctor, judging by all the students around here.
himhuh? nah... I don't know what to be when I'm big. What's your ambition?
me me? hmm. I dunno. A writer, journalist, you know somewhere along that line. Nothing big.
him Well, eventhough the public might think it's not a big job, but most writers are successful in their jobs.

Monday, March 14, 2005   just for the holidays.

music mandarin ; pilot light

(crossposted to my lj)

I enjoy washing my own clothes with my own hands.

On the first Thursday night I called my house and I was hoping, desperately, that my mother won't pick the phone up, but alas, soon after I can't stop tears coming down even during prep class. I have 3 dormmates, and two -Farhana/Hana & Dalila/Dunk- who are already considered as seniors when it comes to normal MJSC boarding school life, and the other, Fara, is a new one, like me. But her hailing from Methodist Girls School and having the word "doh" in her vocabulary and and how she is so choosy when it comes to food (she won't take my tuna sandwich and spaghetti because she doesn't know how to eat it!) how she had been tagging on me to almost make my social life unbearable makes me feel unsatisfied and wishing for a new roommate. Someone should teach her to stop showing the obvious when someone's tears are falling down due to homesick. Dunk, on the other hand, is the proud eater of Dorm G218 while Hana is the proud handphone smuggler of dorm G218 :D & I am known as the alarm clock of G218 since I am in charge of waking all of them up in the morning.

One period, in comparison, is longer than the usual, which is 1 hour, but felt much more shorter. I am in class 401/4A, 23 people, and I am loss without a seat partner, oh woe is me ]: But probably my close friends there are Atiqah/Ieqa & Sakina/Kina, as both of us had been sharing everything all around. The boys, however, are too quiet and studious for my own good. There's one who apparently is in the same homeroom as I am, Homroom 02, who looks exactly my old Amir, who reminds me exactly of Amir (from far he's a quiet type but he could erupt with the weirdest cackle you've ever heard in a minute), and heck, his name is Amir as well!
Everyday I have to walk to and fro to class three times, school, evening prep class, and night prep class. But Every Tuesday & Thursday nights I would find myself in the library reading Edgar Allen Poe's. It's amazing to see 4 books by him in there. Or sometimes I would look through the heavy thick small-printed scientific textbooks for English universities, and I'll be taking in & out Psychology textbooks & a certain American Literature textbook.

I still don't know the names of all my teachers, but I really love Miss Felda, my English teacher. Thanks to her, now I know one thing: William Shakespeare is a homosexual. Yay. & I wrote a suppposedly love sonnet. Uhm. Not impressive for me.

At one night it was so windy that clothes are falling and flying everywhere, doors slammed real hard continuously, and it felt like there's a natural air-cond in the room. This is for staying on top of a hill. At one side of the school, the Ledang Mountain is visible but it doesn't really give me an impact or a good impression or a "waaaaaah!" kind of thing.

I was ina 50/50 state at that time, but I finally decided to stay in MJSC. Not because of scholarship, not because of it's a good school and all that crap (in fact, MJSC Jasin is going dooooooown), but you know, my mother has spent thousands just to make sure I have everything and for the fees and everything, and if I come back then enters my judgementive relatives, and my brother-in-law's brother was in Jasin. In fact, he was the head of the Student's Council. o________o Freaky.
Eventhough Aida, Dina, nana & Ganko said that during recess they feel so alien now, because I was the one who always freshen up the conversation. Or something.

Hmm. Co-curriculum. PKBM/Persatuan Kadet Bersatu Malaysia/... Cadet (haha I'm too lazy to translate it) so I could actually hold a gun and shoot targets or people. Or something. English Club, & Tennis. My mother asks me to continue with my Taekwondo since I already reached Poum/Black Red Belt. But I stopped when I was what, 11 years old? I can't remember anything now.

There's an internet connection there, but it was toooooooooooo slooooooooow. So now, snail mail is the way to go.
& yay I can bring a walkman/discman/mp3 player to prep classes! 

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Sunday, February 20, 2005   goodbye.

I'm off to MRSM Jasin in Melaka. Byebye.
& I'll come back with my Jude Law obsession with me, not a Rosyam Nor one. oyey. 

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Sunday, February 13, 2005   & love is all.

music explosions in the sky ; first breath after coma

I have no idea what to talk about for oral tomorrow. A 5 minute speech about... something. Options that I have, with the help of Dina:
      - the anime and manga obsession spreading thru Malaysia [Dina's] Well despite ebing an aniem fan, I don't really know that much.
      - Grave Of The Fireflies, the movie despite loving the movie and all that jazz, I seriously don't know what to elaborate on this! The only way I could gain more points is by watching it again, in which I am trying to avoid because it's so sad for my own good.
      - Hayao Miyazaki Talk about all of his works and his biography, now this seems okay except I haven't gotten around to all of his works so I couldn't cover everything.
      - Haruki Murakami Again, I haven't read all of his works.
      - Chuck Palahniuk What the hell? I haven't read ANY.
      - Lost In Translation, the movie I thought this was a fairly good movie, and so it comes again to the matter of not knowing what to talk about. This needs a second watch.
      - Music At first this was my choice, but then I have doubts on what to talk about, and to think that I will talk about the music of my choice, in which will bore people. & it needs a chart, and hell do I have time for charts now.
      - Jude Law "he was voted as the 'Sexiest Man Alive' in the People magazine." MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAH.
      - Spirited Away I think I should not give a review of a movie afterall.
      - The Perks Of Being A Wallflower The book's right beside me. Now this seems easy.
      - The art of zining This, too.
& now to get ready the text! In which I am too lazy to type or write it all out & I prefer spontaniety (sp?).

Yesterday I had a great time with Dina, Afnan, Aida, Amir, and Iffa. We went for a some sort of a farewell outing, which is walking around The Curve, Ikano & Ikea for the first time. I tried at drumming for a while, & OMGWTFBBQ IT FEELS GOOD. I want to take drums. More info about this, go to Dina's. : D
Now to redo Dina's blog & to do my oral!

I wonder what happened to my imposter. 

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Friday, February 11, 2005   should we go outside ?

music joanna newsom ; sprout & the bean

Mom asked me and brother to go and have a look at MRSM Jasin, but my brother being lazy and all decided not to, since we ourselves do not know where it's located at. I'm lazy as well. This week has been like the week for all the kids to spend some time with me, yay.

On Wednesday I went to OU again with Meme and Naz this time. We planned to watch a movie, Constantine, but we were too lazy to line up and buy the tickets (and to go through the "are you 18?" thing), so we decided to have a walk around. All we see are not display of products, more like rollershutters, red lanterns and red silk or cloth hung on the ceilings. Rock Corner was open, and I got Selamat Tinggal Dunia by Butterfingers, yay. We met Najwa who went to Sri Puteri boarding school, and after 2 weeks she decided to go back to DU not because of being independant thing, but more like the stress given by the school itself. & now I am not sure about all of this. After that we went to Starbucks and I realised that I should stick with hot chocolate and don't like coffee at all.
On Thursday, yesterday, I went karaoke with Lolina. ^^ nyoo I suck at singing, but that was my plan! To go there to see some entertainment, not to make some! BOHAHA.
Tomorrow there will be a last day out sort of thing with Afnan, Aida, Iffa, Amir, Dina, they all at the Curve. Or more like to explore the Curve. Haha.

I got back the pictures during my birthday. It actually looks great! Good thing about the photolab that we always go to: the pictures look, well, slr-esque? Bad thing:they don't like to insert pictures which they thought it's useless. In the contact sheet given, There's a nice picture of the table but noooo they didn't develop that one. Le poo ): And I am annoyed at how the camera tends to be out-of-focus. I had trouble taking pictures with it! I am too lazy to scan those that consists of Azmie (which is like, a lot). But here's one pic that I like, of Syamil:

Tomei. :>

Important dates in which I will miss (I guess):
26th Feb: Drama competition (I think), Interact Club trip to PAWS/SPCA to visit all the cats, KLPHQ performing in Singapore.
17th March: TORTOISE + THE OBSERVATORY AT ESPLANADE. Oh god. The tickets sold out, but, oh god. xfdbadbywdbz.

I watched Lost In Translation, finally! I thought it was good, but for some reason something's missing. & oh, by now, all of you should know that right now I am fangirl-ing (haha) over this:

:>
& I want to watch I ♥ Huckabees & Closer. Because I heard both are good and, well, the other reason, ya know. :>

I have a very good storyline in my mind, but I can't seem to pen it down. Gah.
Ok now to redo this bloggy's layyie. 

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