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Saturday, July 17, 2004
I really don't know what I have done. I screwed up again, basically, but faster than before. This is a different case. But there goes the saying, learn from your mistakes. I promised myself (and also for all the readers, if there are) not to write everything in such an obsessive type of way, like how I did before (I looked up upon my old and first livejournal, and it was very very embarrasing), which is very immature and makes me look like a sad pathetic case. Oh well.
& what else, both of them are ignoring me. Ahah. Grrreaaat.
So I guess nowadays I'm being very unproductive. A lot of people have gone to Singapore for Baybeats, thus making this night all the more quiet. & some of these people are those who I really really want to talk to at the moment. It's funny realising how that I am closer to older people (and when I say older, they are like what 9 or 10 or more years older?), compare to kids of my age. Sometimes it could be because I lack interest in what they are upto or what are their main topics of discussion, but sometimes I couldn't just fit in. I noticed myself, that I tend to keep quiet at most conversations, and I just offer in a few words which did not make that much difference except to let them know about my existance there. The few (real) friends that I have I do really love them, & I do hope that I get to keep them for a long time. But a few of themI have seen a lot of annoyance and I know that as a friend, I should accept their weaknesses and flaws. And I realised how that they don't accept the way I am, like how I communicate with boys for example. I'm not flirting, kay.
I should have gone to Bon Odori today, but nooo my mother doesn't let me go. Great. I really really want to meet Lina, because she is like my sister, and it would be a pleasure to meet a friend that you have been talking to behind these plastics and technology. But then my mother decided to bring to have a walk, an 8 kilometers long walk with me tomorrow. I guess she is trying to mend our relationship, and trying to get close to me. I'm not blaming her. I know that somehow, I have made her felt very guilty or maybe not comfortable with our state.
I want to go to One Utama. I'm applying for MRSM. I don't want to go anyways, because I couldn't live by eating mee goreng for breakfast the whole year. I want to meet new people. I am really tired. Ihsan has the most cheerful voice I've ever heard. I think I should go and send an email to Hayli because I miss her so much. I got the zine finally, but I always skip my piece because I feel very embarrassed by it. It's a normal habit, usually my pride will be gone in a while after I done the work.
& Shamine rocks my socks so much I wish she is at my school right now. Ellie's writing a letter to me, yay. I'm not in my best mood, but not in my worst either. I'm not sure about the latter.
Sunday, July 11, 2004
Hey ya.
Explosions In The Sky are amazing.
Yesterday Well, kids. Nowadays. Scares me.
It's funny how that under those flourescent blue contact lenses & handphones & glitters & Meaaan Gurrrlzzz accent with conversations revolves around people that couldn't help but fall in love {oh wait, at this time it will be attracted} are still a bunch of sexist, afraid to touch the boys & eventually fake the puking. Ok so they're 10/11/12 years old. The sexist thing is forgivable, the current state of these young'uns scares me. & that's the girls.
The boys, they are just plain cute.
Hey, have you had a party of your own?
No.
Yeah same here. Parties are for girls.
I love that little boy named Christopher.
Some way or another I am the host of the party all of a sudden, & I in my evil way have made some games that actually consists of touching the other filthy species. It's for their own good, some time soon they will end up in the same bed with each other.
& so as a reward I have given a time to conquer the dancing mat & play Dance Dance Dance Revolution. Go me.
So well yeah I missed the gig, but I had a good time telling them the Scout stories of sharing your saliva & stuff.
Today So its SMKDJ's carnival, / Raffick's school, my school's rival, bla bla.
First there were the problem with transportation, but suddenly Fatin's going to be sister-in-law decided to give us a ride. So we arrived in total confusion, as that coupon selling girl told us the concert ticket booth {since Atikah & Fatin do not have the tickets} were somewhere near the stalls but all we find is the BubbleTea stall. Oh BubbleTea how I love thee.
So we decided to search for the goddamn ticket booth at the hall & poof! there's Raffick! Since they were stamping on our hands, Atikah decided to be smart & my stamp got smeared on hers & they let her in without the ticket. Smart.
The concert was a bore {no offence yah Raff}. There were the junior & senior cheerleading teams, Minimitez & Dynamitez. So the Minimitez screwed up a bit in the end. & what actually gives me the shock is the fact that when they cheer, instead of you know usual cheery small sound there's the deep voice. & I know, if I was a guy, I would be scared since there's this group from a slimming center which turns out to be a bunch of old chinese women with overly dyed hair & tight half tops with their stomach bulging out dancing.
Yeah.
Freaky.
Told you that boys in long skirts, sunglasses & hibiscus shaking their butt is waaay better.
Other than that, there were this Filipino singer in which did not manage to pull any interest from me & Atikah & the rest, I guess. & the sound system was bad. You know. RAFFICK YOU SOUND LIKE THE HEARSAY TAO DOOT NOW I REMEMBER. The all-girls band did not impress me. G Minor didn't, too. For some reasons.
So basically it was not much. & all they sell were food food food. D:
I can't wait for the ziine to coome!
& Will Young + Hey YA ??
Awesome.
Yeah.
<3
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